I was homeless and living on the street, I was having problems with my left foot. I had already had my big toe removed, from poor circulation. The doctor told me next time I come back with the same issue, they would have to take my foot. So my foot got infected again and I chose to stay out there on the street as long as I can because I knew when I went to the hospital I would lose my foot. I didn’t know that the infection could go from my foot into my bloodstream, I was rush to the hospital and when I came to the doctor explained to me that he should not be having a conversation with me I should be dead.
People were telling me for years that if I didn’t do something about my addiction, that I was going to die, and I didn’t believe them, now I believe. I had a long talk with myself in the hospital that night. I didn’t want to die and I didn’t want people to remember me the way I was. The infection did a lot of damage to my body and I spent two months in the hospital. When I was released I poured myself into AA, I got a sponsor and I did everything he told me to do.
I was not looking for a relationship with God, I was trying to find a way to stay sober, up to that point the most sober time I had was two years, it had been double digits years of in and out of the program. The one thing I had not done in all those years was the twelve steps, and this time I was committed to doing them all. My reward for doing the steps was I had developed a relationship with God.
Today I try to live my life in a way that is pleasing to God, I continue to build that relationship, on a daily basis, and it is the main reason that I have been able to stay sober for six going on seven years. I give all the credit to Christ, and now when life happens I don’t turn to a bottle, I turn to Christ he makes the impossible, possible!